Sunday, February 27, 2005

Don't.

Don't expect any knitting updates for a while.

After over a year, and completely out of nowhere, Deglan has decided to dump me. He says he needs to get his shit together.

I honestly love him so much, and he doesn't realize how painful it is to hear that he doesn't want me in his life, not for the happiness or the sadness.

I don't understand what changed so suddenly, and I don't understand why he still gave me that ring if he was having doubts.

There are people in the middle east who can just will their hearts to stop beating, and slip away. Why can't I do that?

7 Comments:

Blogger Christina said...

Here's hoping things start making more sense. It was a lovely ring and probably only makes this hurt more. I just wanted to let you know I'll be sending positive thoughts your way.

11:14 PM  
Blogger Tere said...

...There are also people in the middle east who live surrounded by soldiers, war, starvation and the constant fear of being killed. I'm not being insensitive, but sometimes it does help to see the big picture; it could be worse, there is good in your life, and it WILL pass. I promise.
Tere :)

6:55 AM  
Blogger Julia said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your breakup. Almost everyone knows and can relate to the pain of that. That being said, I hope you can see the good things going around you and focus on that.

-Juls
valleygrrl.typepad.com

4:55 PM  
Blogger Stacy said...

I'm sorry to hear that things have gone so awry. I understand where you are in that respect, and the only thing that I can offer you for the moment is this.
Obviously this boy has chosen to miss out on someone who is remarkable and special. The funny thing about choices, is that you have to live with them, for good or bad.
HE is the one missing out here, not you.
I'll miss reading you, I hope that you find some therapy in a big ball of yarn and come out on top of this soon!
Stac

1:05 AM  
Blogger Witchypooh Lynne said...

Big Hugs. I know how hurt you must feel, but you know sometimes these things just don't make sense, so just try to think of it of something to get through right now and you will get through this, trust me.

I wish I had a magic wand to make it better, but you know if someone could walk away from you so easily, then they don't deserve you. More Virtual Hugs.

12:01 PM  
Blogger Christine (knitting for boozehags) said...

That SUX! I'm sorry momma! I know it won't help at the time being, but I didn't meet my guy till I was like 29! I dated so many dudes but when I found Anthony I totally knew, and you will too. Get angry, it's easier to process than pain! And as I say "NNNNNEXT!!!!!". You're a beautiful gal, you'll be okay!
Big hug and kisses to you, christine

1:59 PM  
Blogger Witchypooh Lynne said...

Christine's right... sometimes we do have to kiss a lot of toads before prince charming comes along.

Let us know how you are doing.

11:15 AM  

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